Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Something Doesn't Add Up.

So we got another update today. Shimeliss told Hope adoption which told Lisa that our boys are no longer available for adoption and that they are back with their family. Shimeliss had mentioned that he had already told Lisa that, which he hadn't. SOMETHING DOESN'T ADD UP. We have been offered new referrals and new children TWICE and since the boys are back in their regional orphanage again, they have no jurisdiction over them. My fear is that this may just another way for them to get us to move on?
If they are back with their families again, great, I can deal with that and are would be happy that they are with some sort of family. But something in my spirit doesn't feel right. I can't put my finger on it. Our updates have hardly ever seemed to add up and sometimes been contradicting. I have no reason to trust them, even though I want to.
PLEASE PRAY FOR US, we need wisdom. I feel so trapped, angry, devastated and in tears. I can't let this rest until we have more details, because of course, we didn't get any of those.

5 comments:

Robin said...
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Robin said...

Sending prayers, my friend. As for the Lord, His way is perfect...

Paula said...

Cara, I just don't know what to say. I so understand all of your misgivings. All I can do is pray for you and your family, and I will.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. I've been following your blog for a while. We have been using Hope too. Hard, hard stuff. I will be praying that God will give you His wisdom and insight. The pain and unanswered questions (or lies) are great. I keep telling myself "God knows all things" and God will bring forth justice for our kids. So sorry you are going through this.

Susan said...

Hi Cara,

Just wanted to say hello and that you guys are in our prayers as you go through this.

Susan Gordon (Kenn's wife)